Miracles

I keep telling you that I'm blessed... and that's because I am!

I keep getting the same spiritual lesson taught to me (and probably will for the rest of my life), and that is to trust God, and that everything will be alright. He's running the show, ya know. (NOT ME!!!)

Here's my latest miracle:
6 months ago Jaren started getting serious about his idea to "quit his job, and just focus on school." Well, anyone that knows me - knows that I value my independence. Highly. Call it pride if you will. The problem with his little scenario was that it called for us to move... into his parent's house. I'm 29, almost 30!!! His parent's are great - and everyone knows that... but I am not great with having to accept help from anyone (I prefer to be the one helping). I like to think of myself as capable, independent, and thriving as a successful wife. None of these come to my mind when I think of living in a room two doors down from his parent's.
Well... good thing I'm not in charge. We prayed about it. I was telling God in my prayer- that I would do as He willed me... but that really... really deep down (ok, not even that deep down), I wanted to stay put... really really! Well luckily God knows that I need "kick in the pants" answers, and didn't leave much room for doubt. I was to move out, and let Jaren quit his job to study.

Well... I'm prideful. I already told you that. So we moved, but I never stopped questioning - "Why?" and "Are You sure?" Dang Brenna... that's what God must have been thinking. Especially when I envied Jaren's extra sleeping time (he didn't have a job - why get up at 5:50?)... or when I saw that despite living in his parent's home our finances were still going downhill....

Well yesterday I finally got the message. Yesterday at approximately 11:20 am, Jaren called to tell me that Silverstate Helicopters (the company that he obtained his license from... less than two weeks ago) was shut down. Bankrupt apparently. Gone!

Where's the miracle you ask? What would have happened had he not quit his job and focused on school? He wouldn't have finished. He would be 2 years into this, financially depleted, and nothing to show for it. He finished literally in the last hours of the company's life.

I KNOW that God is watching over all of us. I KNOW that he personally guided me, literally - against my own will, into this, and safeguarded us through it. So I ask myself... when am I going to learn? When will I stop asking "Why?" When will I just trust Him?

Now I pray for the thousands that are stuck in that mess. I pray that they will be watched over and protected - and guided to where the need to be.